Sinking Feeling

Like a lost dingy, I float,

With no power or zeal,

No meaning no purpose

Just floating.

 

But, now and again,

I get a sinking feeling

Past hurts bubble to the surface

and pull me under.

 

Like a useless rock, I sink,

No rescue or hope,

No underlying strength,

Just sinking.

 

Others rise as I fall,

But my many failures

Become more loyal than loved ones,

and drag me down,

                            down,

                                   down.

Forgotten

New life

Has Sprung out of you,

The past left behind;

The place you were

Forgotten...forgiven almost

 

But I, I wanted you to die,

To be left as nothing

Or to burn until you crumbled to empty remains;

You, the place that taught me,

You the place that crumbled me

To nothing.

 

You are

Now surrounded with flower beds,

Your dark walls brightened;

The place you were

Warmed...homely almost

 

But I, I wanted you left cold,

To be left heartless

Or to be bulldozed until you fell to pieces;

You, the place that ignored me,

You the place that tore me

To pieces.

 

Life will

Move into you now,

Sweep away the flaws in your past;

Under a new rug,

Forgotten...Forgiven almost.

To Be Loved

These tears don’t belong here

Yet here they are anyway

Needing a hand of reassurance

To say it’s okay

 

The feeling will pass

It always does

Don’t put up defences

I’m just making a fuss

Though sometimes knowledge

Just isn’t enough

I need to be loved, I need to be loved

 

These tears I’ve welcomed

My long lost friends

Needing some kind of reassurance

That I’m okay

 

This will be forgotten

It always is

No holding grudges

Just ignore this

Though sometimes I need more

Than a silent wish

I need to be loved, I need to be loved